Endurance
HOT DAMN I felt like giving up today. I don't know about you, but my weakest moment of the day, EVERY day, is sometime between 4-6:00pm. Something about that time of the day that just makes me want to EAT. That's usually the time of the day that I have assigned to hit the gym (which I've been slacking on). So instead of focusing that energy on the gym, my mind wanders to what I wish I could be eating.
Another problem I'm also facing, is how incredibly difficult it is to refrain from any type of social activity because of my J.C restrictions. Simply put, I really feel like I can't go out....at least not now. And it's not that I can't go out because technically, at some point I have to return home and eat....It's really because when I'm out and about, there are just too many temptation (for any food obsessed chick such as myself) to resist. I really feel like I need to get a substantial amount of weight loss under my belt in order for me to have enough mental ammunition to combat my compulsion to eat. Does that sound nuts?
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You are a very talented, extremely funny, writer. Your language is a bit offensive to me, but you're keeping it real and I have to like that about you. When I read the phrase "JC restrictions," I shuddered ... and then it occurred to me: you have not yet learned the JC language. We don't talk about restrictions; instead they are learning opportunities and we focus not on the restrictions but on the freedom to choose. Isn't it that freedom to choose that landed us in this awful mess in the first place? I loved the analogy of mental ammunition and combat, for we are in the battle of our lives. As is the case for many of us, it is get healthy or die! I wish you much luck on your 180 day journey. I'll be following along as I travel the JC road with you. "FlutterbyJan"
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your commentary. I'm always super interested in what people think. I also find it comforting that people can understand these wacky/ bizarre struggles that float around in my brain. I'll try to curb my use of expletives....but sometimes only the use of a 4 letter word can really drive my point across. THANK YOU and MUCH LOVE.
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