Day 11

Happy Friday Family

It's a little hard not having my computer hooked up. We disassembled it for fear that some inconsiderate schmuck would rest their drink on it at our holiday party tomorrow night. Nothing like having a $4000 drink coaster. So with that being said, it may be a little difficult for me to post for the next few days. It's gonna take a while to recover and set everything back up after the party. And their ain't NO WAY I'm gonna get caught on my work computer blogging about how and why I'm a fat ass.

So anyway, this whole process of trying to shed our old skin (for me, all 60 extra lbs of it) is exactly what I just called it...A PROCESS. First of all, (besides nicotine addiction) losing weight has got to be the absolute HARDEST thing in life to do. What other activity do we have to dedicate so much mental time and attention to? It is an ongoing process will never end. UNLESS OF COURSE, we can figure out how to not make it a PROCESS. I guess the real question is, how do we change it from being a PROCESS to something instinctive?

How do we wake up in the morning and instinctively want fruit and granola instead of a sausage McGriddle from McDonalds? How do we instinctively feel the need to make sure we drink 8 glasses of water instead of 8 cans of Diet Coke? How do we instinctively know that eating a light, healthy dinner is really what our body wants? Really the corruption in our mind is fighting against our natural instinct to be healthy. So I guess we have to fix what's in our minds first then, no?

What has been slowly happening to me in the last 2 weeks while being on this diet, has really opened my eyes to the natural signals my body has been trying to give me for years. For example, and I can bet the bank on this....every single time I decide to go on one of my wacky diet, the easiest thing to do is make sure I drink my 8-10 glasses of water.....and every single time I go at least a week or so and consistently stay hydrated, my skin clears right the fuck up. It's amazing. For a while, I was like...Ummm, I'm in my 30's and still breakout? UNACCEPTABLE. Not that I'm claiming to have porcelain skin now, but I sure don't break out like I used to even as recent as a few weeks ago. For me, that's motivation enough to stay on top of my water game.

Now the problem with staying on top of eating healthy is the results aren't always so immediate.

Drink water=skin clears up in a week.
Feel like we are starving ourselves for 3 week and pretty much look the same=not so much fun.

And this is where we faulter. This is where we ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS throw in the towel. What I'm saying family, is let's not just throw in the towel yet again. Let's make it past this plateau. Can we throw on a bikini this season and feel comfy? I sure know I can't. But guess what...I will, and in relatively short period of time...

I've also learned that getting fixated on a big number is a sure fire way to discourage the heck out of me. So like I've mentioned before...baby steps. My next goal is to lose another 10lbs. No matter how long that takes. The most important piece of advice that I can give whenever I "preach" about staying on our diet is this...TIME IS GOING TO PASS ANYWAY. If it's 1 pound a week or 4 pounds a week, it's still fat that's off our ass. And when 6 months pass, and we are kicking ourselves for giving up, just think about how happy you would of been with 1 lb a week. That could of been 24lbs if we didn't give up!

So instead of bitching and moaning that it's "only 1 pound"..TAKE THE 1LB LOSS! IT ADDS UP, AND ITS BETTER THEN A 1LB GAIN!!!