Day 6

Fucking Up.

I may have created a self fulling prophecy by always talking about fucking up at my mother's house...cause guess what...I fucked up. I mean, it really could have been a lot worse. I just ate like a normal person yesterday. I started my day by eating my J.C.A.M (Jenny Craig Appointed Meal) in the morning and afternoon. But soon as the night fell, Ma Dukes wanted me to take her out to dinner. It's bad enough I hardly go and visit my parents to begin with, but to then tell her no, I can't break a lil' bread with her because my mouth turns into a hoover vacuum in a restaurant? I figured I'd just take the loss on this one meal, and try my best to control myself.

So I schlepped my mother to her preferred choice of dinning experience... California Pizza Kitchen ( I know, I know... high societal living). What I wanted to eat was this: Nachos with Spinach Artichoke Dip, Mushroom Ravioli in a Pesto Cream Sauce, and a Hot Fudge Sundae for dessert... Approximately 2200 calories. What I actually ate was this: Tortilla Soup, Grilled Chicken Cesar Salad (lite on the dressing), and a kid's sized Hot Fudge Sundae... Approximately 1200 calories). What I SHOULD of eaten was this: Grilled Chicken Cesar Salad-no dressing, and the Asparagus Soup (which is basically like hot water with Asparagus floating around in it -Yuk). That would of been about 400 calories. As bland, tasteless and unappetizing as that is, it is still a little bit higher then the caloric value of the J.C Pizza I should of eaten that night.

All this brings me back to my original point (and remember Family, I'm really talking to myself here...), if you are on J.C, then BE on J.C. Unless you have the will power to go out to dinner, and have a dry salad with a glass of water while everyone else around you is shoveling food down their mouths, then just don't go. Oh man, I just remembered about the 2 pieces of buttered bread I had while waiting for my food last night...Oh lord... and the chocolate donut that I grabbed as I ran out of my mother's house this morning. Oh lord....I'm in trouble... Hopefully the 6 days of being on this plan religiously has afforded me a little room to fuck up. Tomorrow is weigh-in, so we'll see.....