Day 5

This is actually an old entry that I wrote some months ago when I tried Weight Watchers. Not that I'm knocking good ol Jenny McCarthy loving W.W, I just need a lil more structure when trying to diet. Give me an inch and I WILL take that mile. I'm here visiting my mother, so I figured I'd post this in homage to her.

July 20th, 2009
Moms.

There are just some things that set me off. Set me off way BEYOND any possibility of self-restraint with food. It's like my mind is taken over by some mystical force, and I no longer have control over my body. One of those "triggers" is going to my mother's house. Years of therapy probably won't be able to explain why that is...It just is. So I have to accept it and work around that pitfall while I'm trying to lose weight.

The reason I brought that up is because I'm at my mother's. Immediately, when I walk in, I go straight for the refrigerator. WHY? I don't even know....wasn't even hungry. Thanks god she's in Greece right now, and they emptied the entire fridge out. I go sit and in the dinning room, and waiting for me is a bag of chocolate chip mini-muffins. GONE LIKE THE WIND...I almost ate the bag too. I look to my left, and miraculously I see my ALL TIME favorite dessert in life. Now, how can it be that my mother is 5,000 miles and an entire ocean away from me, and a bag of rainbow cookies is sitting right in front of me at her house? I'm pretty sure I ate a lil bit of the paper when I inhaled them. I grabbed the mail I came to get, and vowed never to go to that evil place again.

Needless to say, the rest of the day went to shit after that. I had a slice of pizza for lunch (it wasn't even that good), and a bag of chips for dinner. But as the song says, "we fall down, but we get up". This morning, I woke up ready to get back up. I did come super close to ordering about 1300 calories for dinner last night from my favorite spot FLOR DE MAYO, but I forced myself to just forget the day, go to bed and start over right now. In hindsight, it could of been a lot worse.